Hello, I am blue!

I am blue. A boy who was born in a very conservative family in a little city in East Java, Indonesia. I have three older sisters and one little sister, and yes, I am the only boy in the family. My dad is the most religious person I've ever known till today, although my mum is not as religious as him, she's always been a conservative.

Just like any conservative family, they gave me strict rules, drew lines around me, not allowing me to dare to touch the lines, let alone cross over them. It worked for my sisters, but apparently not for me. I grew up to be more rebellious, and they make it clear that they're not happy with it.

At some points, I'd feel grateful to had a chance to be taught like a conservative. The walls that they built around me is so strong that it would be hard to knock it down. But, deep down, I always feel that they broke me in a way that I would never ever be able to recover.

This blog is my voice, I want to be heard, here, behind the walls.